I have always dreamed of having a daughter. I longed for and almost shall I say ached for one. We found out 2 weeks ago that our 4th child is in deed a god given gift of a daughter. now.... I am scared to dealth.
I made so many mistakes growing up not respecting my self and my worth. I can look back and almost pin point where each and every turn went in the wrong direction. Thankfully God always had my back!
The reason I guess I am scared is that I want more for my daughter. I want her to know that she is an amazing gift from God and to respect herself as well as her worth. I want her to know that literally the sky is the limit in what ever she dreams. I want her to be independent and not to be afraid to explore the world. I want her to know the importance of a college education and how much further in can take you even in just self respect. I want her to NEVER settle for anything that is not good enough for her. I want her to be strong, smart and self sufficient.
I hope and pray that I can be a good influence and a positive voice in her life. I pray that we have a bond like my mother and I have. I pray that she will see me as a fierce ally and know that I will always have her back and love her even in the toughest of times (like say 14 years old)...
I am scared but I am so excited about what our future holds together.
I thought that dreaming of my wedding day and children we so exciting.... now, I dream of her 16th birthday party, her first prom, her wedding, her pregnancies and births of her children. How crazy is the circle of life anyway?
I am 21 weeks pregnant with my daughter Cailee and fill up to the brim with excitement just thinking about seeing her beautiful little face.
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